im immortal mwah ha ha

yeah so thats the truth. im not goin 2 die, im gonna live forever.
ive been doin work experience all week and ive really enjoyed myself. its totally the job that i wanna do and im glad ive picked that career. its gonna be hard though but i like challenges lol.
ive decided that im gonna try not to bitch anymore. admittedly havin things out of my system makes me feel beta bt i still feel bad. i gt tld i was the bitchiest person they knew and that isnt a good thing. im gonna try my hardest and if i need to, ill tell the person how im feelin because im becoming a hell of a lot more confident in tellin people how i feel.
i went for a meal with helen 2day which was a hoot lol. i cant believe how indepth and how into things we get which r fictional lol.
has anyone heard of sharleen spiteri who sings "all the times ive cried"-i love that song lol.
anyway i is off
byebye
lv
lindz

the place i call home

i went to donny live on saturday. This is a free festival which they have in donny town centre where they have bands play for free. They had eliott minor and the levellers to play. We turned up at 9pm. We had gone to see the levellers play and guess what time they came on-11pm. I dont mind that but when there are loads of drunken people smoking in your face and your stone cold sober-it isnt the nicest situation. It opened my eyes a bit on how much i dont like where i live. yeah its my hometown but ive always said that when i go to university i wont be moving back here. i know everyone thinks the worse about their hometown and it might not be as bad as you make out but you still dont have to like it. Anywho-i enjoyed the band and they finished at midnight.
went to the hospital yesterday about the surgery i can have on my eyes. i had testing and the bloke explained a lot to me and then i had 2 wait 45minutes to speak 2 some other bloke for 2 minutes who told me far less than the other one and told me i was being referred. They are gonna do a different surgery than they originally thought and although im not squeamish-some of it sounded weird. i explained it to my friend at work and it grossed him out-more than last time when i orginally explained what they were gonna do. i also have to have a week off school after it-i dont think i can do that-i cant sit in the house for a day without gettin bored so what am i gonna b like for a week.
1st week of hols and im already bored-i need to look at uni prospectuses soon and do that tiny piece of hwk i hv. Plus some of my friends are on holiday and the others cant come out so im bored even more lol. I went shoppin 2day coz i wo bored and i learnt i am good at shoppin for anything apart from clothes. like in topshop-i have a card that will get me discount bt i find stuff in there really expensive. I always look for the cheapest price-like helen said "a proper yorkshire lass looking for the bargain lol". but seriously some of that stuf is worth less than they put it and you can get a lot nicer stuff for a lower price
anyway im off
lv
lindz

berlin

yeah so i went to berlin with school for a week. was a hell of a lot of fun. i really didnt want to come home. i thought when i went it was going to be like most normal capital cities-hectic, busy, full of ignorant people. I was totally wrong. The people seemed really friendly and most spoke english, it wasn't that busy either. The shops were great as well. The only problem was the bus ride there. 23 hours. Well we were all set for midday like we were told and we had said all our goodbyes to the people at school. Then what happens-we get sat out in the rain for 2 hours coz the bus is late. Anyway-not that big a problem-bt it does get tiring wen all our doing is waiting. Went back 2 see my friends again. Finally got on the bus-then we had 2 stop sum twenty minutes down the road in harworth(which is still classed as doncaster) for 40 minutes because the driver had been driving too long ARGH!!!!!! Anyway we got back out on the road and got there ok. Had a few hours sleep, not many though as it isnt exactly comfortable sleeping when you are sat up but we still got there. We got there at 1pm the next day and in the evening we went to the reichstag which is the german government building-it was interesting to walk around it and find out all the history about it at the top of the reichstag there is a sphere of mirrors and a ramp you can walk up to give you a view of berlin....it is an amazing and there are various pics of me posing there lol. Anyway we did various things over the week such as visit the wansee conference and the film museum and jewish museum and they were really interesting as well.
The thing that gave me the reality shock was the concentration camp. I knew when i went that it was going to be depressing but i didnt know how much i was going to take away from it. The conditions those people had to live in and many died in was horrifying. The stories i heard about how these people lived made me think. These people live and worked in these horrific conditions and were malnutritioned and diseased and many died at the end of it all. Many were forced to work in the crematorium and so they didnt spread the word they were killed within weeks of working there. The crematoriums made me sick to the stomach. It made me think about the problems i have. They are nothing compared with what these people had to go through and that i shudnt dwell on the problems i have. I know sometimes i am going to think the problems i have are shit but compared to these people they are nothing.
Anyway the evening activities were really fun and we got a lot of free time to do what we wanted to do. We went bowling which was fun(there was no bumpers which made it quite hard), we went to a french festival which had happend to finish by the time we got there so we hung out doing our own thing for a few hours which was great. We got a whole group foto and also we got a foto of team donaldinho lol. We also went to the imax cinema to see a german film in 3d. Although i dint understand it, it was still fun lol. The best part was the day we went shoppin and the zoo. The zoo was awesome i got loads of pictures-giraffes(yay-there my fave animal lol) and theres even a lego giraffe in berlin as well which i also gt a pic of lol. The shopping was fun as well...i got a berlin bag...i decided not to get any clothes as i was worried they wouldnt fit coz all the changing rooms were always full. and most of them ill probs b able to get in england for cheaper anyway
got back at 10am yesterday but i cudnt sleep and then i got really ill. i slept from half5 last nite until 6am this morning lol. Last day of skool 2day. we had a party in form coz our form tutor was retirin and i went and sat with one of my friends for a while because we were allowed out. I had the confidence to sing at mass and had a laugh with the actions which usually i wudnt do cz im usually sat wi sum1 i dont speak 2. then we went shoppin and kfc for a while was fun.
Had a lot of compliments on my new clothes when i went to berlin. It boosted my confidence a lot and now i feel more confident with my clothes and shopping. Cant wait to see whether i can have that surgery on my eye and then i will be really confident lol.
Anyway long blog 2day
lv
lindz

Progress? I think so....!!!!

Yay!!!!
It's been a great week and at the minute it's gettin better. I may not end up killing anyone lol. Well it's progress week at school. Basically that means all lessons are cancelled and the schools organise activities that are beneficial to us. the other years are getting falcons and the chairman of donny rovers coming in. We r gettin talks on university and getting ready for university. I no that might sound boring compared to the rest of the other years but all in all its better than what i expected it to be. The first day was good. We had a man come in to talk to us. Admittedly he ripped us apart but askin who would join a naked society was funny.The rest of the day was quite boring bt meh. Then i went to town with Helen and bought clothes 4 2day which was also a lot of fun.
Tuesday wasnt so gr8. We had 2 work on computers and then we had a talk on finance so it wasnt that gr8
Today was interview clothes day. We had 2 come in dressed as if we were going to an interview. I bought an outfit when i went town with Helen on Monday. I got a lot of compliments sayin that i looked fantastic and it really boosted my confidence coz im the sorta girl who always wears the baggy tops n jeans and never wear skirts and blouses. However wearin a skirt and blouse made me a lot more confident lol. I also sorted a few problems out 2day that i thought i wouldnt have the confidence to approach bt i did. I'm pleased cz im not the sorta person who does that bt i think its was because there was a smaller group there 2day. However, we r still quite bitchy in our group so i think we need 2 gt beta on that front-i think it wil b beta on my account-well im gonna try anyway. The talks were really good as wel. The year in industry seems quite good and i might go for that
anyway im off
lv
lindz

meh

good week
then the weekend came and that went straight out the window
ARGH!!!!! made me feel better lol
work was weird-had a lot of laughs cz it was quiet bt i also found misen gtin annoyed
ive decided i aint gona lt little things get me down anymore-theres no point to them
n right at this moment i dont have the energy with them
im gonna try and deal with things head on as wel-rather than usin evry detour possible
i know this blog doesnt make any sense to anyone right now bt at the moment it makes sense for me lol
also final lessons wi skool until september-will js have to look over sum work n finish a few things before september bt they wont take long so all in all not to bad
then progress wk-not to bad
then berlin baby YAYYAYAyAY
lv
lindz